(CNN Español) - Megan Jayne, una joven británica de 22 años, ha aumentado más de 40 kilos en un año. Y aunque muchas otras mujeres estarían preocupadas por subir tanto peso, ella está feliz. En algún momento de su vida llegó a pesar 29 kilos, y lograr estos kilos de más es su triunfo sobre la anorexia y el testimonio de amor propio que comparte con sus miles de seguidores a través de las redes sociales y de su página web.
Jayne se describe a si misma como una "anoréxica recuperada" que luchó durante dos años contra la enfermedad.
"Quiero mostrarle a las personas que recuperarse es posible. Y llevar un mensaje de que todos somos extraordinariamente hermosos, tal como somos, y que lo que valemos es mucho más de cómo nos vemos", dice la joven en su página web.
One day you'll see. The moments of your life that you've missed. The memories that were made to light up your mind with smiles in vivid colour. But instead, they are dull. They were dulled. By a mind that could never truly live in that moment, too consumed by the ever present mirror forcing your reflection to the forefront of your thoughts. You cannot truly live with that mirror, looming over all that you do, and all that you are. One day you'll see, that it was inside you all along – the power to smash the mirror into pieces too small to ever pierce through your self esteem again. One day you'll see, that you could have lived unburdened by lies about your worth residing in your reflection. That you could have laughed with your whole body shaking. That you could have devoured every bite without shame. That you could have lived every moment, for yourself. One day, you will see. And I can't think of a better day than the one you're living right now. 💜💙💚🌈🌞
La joven hoy día es una promotora de la imagen corporal positiva y de los "amorosos rollitos en el estómago", afirma. Jayne comparte en su cuenta de Instagram y en su página web cientos de mensajes inspiracionales a través de los cuales pretende ayudar a otras personas, mujeres y hombres, que se sienten inseguros con sus cuerpos.
The UNSTOPPABLE force of body positivity @franhayden has done something amazing! The #iamhereproject is giving us a space to stand up, define ourselves and be proud of who we are! To some people, 'free' might not sound like a personal attribute, but for me it is. Because I have fought to get to this state of mind – to be free. Free from my eating disorder, free from self hatred, free from toxic diet culture and the body image demons that tried to steal my life from me. Now, I am free enough to see my body with love, and without comparison to the unattainable 'ideals' that none of us asked to be put up against. I am free enough to wear what I want, eat what I want, and be who I want without the constant fear that my appearance makes me undeserving of those things. I am free enough to have the confidence to try to show you all every day, that you are so wonderful, and so worthy, just as you are. I would love if you all would join us in this fantastic project, and show the world that we are ALL here, in all of our unique glory. 💜💙💚🌞🌈
"Cada vez que no nos ponemos algo, dejamos de comer o de hacer algo porque creemos que no somos suficientemente buenos, que no lo merecemos, estamos dejando que la vida se nos escape entre los dedos. Nos atamos a cadenas que dicen "Lo haré cuando pierda peso" o "No puedo hacerlo mientras me vea así", y rechazamos nuestra felicidad por una promesa que nunca llega", afirma Jayne en su página.
I want you to know that this isn't your fault. All those thoughts about your body, all those things you hate about yourself – they didn't spring to life all by themselves. You live in a world that has taught you self hatred so well, and for that you hold no blame. It's not your fault that this world made you believe that your beauty can be seen in a mirror alone. It's dazed you with a blur of magazine covers and makeover shows. It's not your fault that this world tells you to value thin over everything, closing it's eyes to the people that sends to an early grave. Nobody told you that you don't exist to look like an empty image of photoshopped 'perfection'. Nobody told you don't exist to be looked at. If I could, I'd take you away. I'd put you in a world that teaches the truth – that you exist as so much more than a body. So when you're struggling, when those thoughts won't go away, when all the body positivity in the world won't quiet those voices. Just know that it isn't your fault. And that somewhere, there's another world where you can see how beautiful you really are. 💜💙💚🌈🌞
Ahora Jayne posa orgullosa para las fotografías que comparte con sus más de 70.000 seguidores en Instagram. Es común verla en ropa interior o bikinis, y suele comparar esas imágenes de cómo se ve ahora con fotografía que le tomaron cuando sufría de anorexia. En el punto más grave de su enfermedad, Jayne llegó a pesar 29 kilos.
"Lo que sea que te hayan enseñado a odiar de ti mismo, bien sea tu peso, tu altura, tu color de piel, tu género, tu edad, tus habilidades... eres más que eso", le dice la joven a sus seguidores.
RECOVERY IS WORTH IT. I know there are times that you don't believe that. I know that it's harder than you ever thought it would be. I know that it hurts – physically, mentally, emotionally. I know that a lot people don't understand. And because I know, because I can never forget, I can promise you this... It will get better. The voice of your eating disorder that takes over every waking moment will fade the more you defy it. Food will get less terrifying, eventually you'll rediscover the joy in it. The old you will reappear, and the people worthy of your love will still be there, or new ones will come. A day will pass without the constant obsession of the next meal. Your body will try its best to heal itself. It might look very different and that will be scary. But it will let you live like you never thought you could again. One day you could even learn to love it. Keep going. Be kind to yourself, be patient and be forgiving. Believe that you deserve it. I know it might seem impossible, but it is worth it. I promise. 🌈💙💜
Aunque ahora Jayne dice que físicamente está fuera de peligro, afirma que su mente nunca se recuperó de la anorexia, y que debe recordarse todos los días que la felicidad va más allá del aspecto físico de las personas.
"Me tardé en darme cuenta que no podía pasar el resto de mi vida odiándome. No quería hacer dietas por siempre ni quería tener el cerebro lleno de los mensajes de los medios sobre el 'cuerpo ideal'. Supe que la delgadez nunca sería igual a la felicidad, a pesar de lo que se nos ha enseñado".
Can we talk about mental health for a minute? Every single one of us will know someone, or be someone who's struggled with mental illness at some point. And sure, there's a lot of talk about breaking stigma and being more compassionate, but so many of us are still afraid to put ourselves out there and say this: Yes, those things are a part of me, but they are not all of me. #thechristineproject is about embracing our struggles, and knowing our worth beyond them. We are such magical multi-dimensional beings, and we deserve to recognise the wonder in that, in the ups, the downs and everything in between. Check out the unstoppable @thechristinecho and her blog to see more, and please please take part in this wonderful project if you feel like you can! 💜💙💚🌈🌞